MM: Oh, that's just Ty, trying to blow up the house...

 

 1) What happens when you mix a 4 year old who is slightly neurotic about all things electrical, a copper penny, and a Daddy who isn't paying attention?

One guess.

That's right... this kid:

is one lucky goose. 

He didn't get hurt, but he did blow the breaker and make all the lights in the back of the house go out.

2) Speaking of lucky (or should I say protected by angels) my mom and nephew were eating at a Chick-fil-a  a few nights ago in Snellville, and a young guy in a black ski mask came in with a gun and robbed the place.

My mom and Mason (who is three) were the only customers there: Mom grabbed Mason, ducked behind a trash can in the back and called the police... guy ran out and they haven't caught him yet.

I think I would have passed out.

Seriously. Scar-y.

 

3) My kids were awesome on Halloween this year... we went to a church fall festival and the boys went trick-or-treating with their cousins.

I made their costumes again (my once-a-year attempt at sewing)...

I think they turned out pretty well.

 Phineas, Ferb, and Agent P (Perry the Platypus)

Once Reese realized that everyone he went to was giving out candy, he just could not believe it.

Best.day.ever.

 4) So we have been working like crazy this week, trying to get our new online store organized... we used Ecrater (totally free marketplace) 

Loving it so far!

We are making Christmas ornaments this week, getting ready for the holiday season...(is it seriously November already!?)

Check it out!

Enameled Cross: Ornament

Black and Blue- Butterfly necklace:

Also, head over to Steph's 1st Blog Anniversary celebration for a chance to win something from our shop!

Happy Monday =)

So I made a decision, a big one.

 "Our greatest fear as individuals and as a church should not be of failure, but of succeeding at things in life that don’t really matter." -Tim Kizziar

 

I withdrew from the education program. ( I know my family is like whatttttttttt?)

God has been working on me like crazy over the past few months... about my pride, my ridiculous standards, my family, and my goals in life.

I was barely interacting with my kids, me and David were fighting constantly (and we hardly ever fight)...

I had to re-prioritize a lot and I finally realized school is the one factor that doesn't make sense.

So I withdrew... 

I need to focus on more important things...school will always be there, but my boys need me now.

I thought I would be more upset, but the thing is, education just wasn't right for me. I think teaching is an incredibly hard, important job and there are way too many people that go into education for the wrong reasons. I was one of them. I was in education because I basically couldn't make up my mind about what I wanted to go to school for and I was running on a deadline to get into a program.

Not that I didn't love working with the kids- but Special Education is a whole lot more than teaching- there are endless amounts of paperwork, meetings, and political junk that you have to keep up with... you have to be level-headed, dedicated, organized, and patient... I would have been a TERRIBLE teacher.

So anyway, I will finish up one class this semester and then figure the rest out later.

It is really hard to give up control (especially for a control freak); it is hard to give up selfish ambition, but I think God wants something completely different from me. I was moving forward because of what I thought I "needed" to do, instead of focusing on what He wants from me.

...and He simply wants more.

... He wants it all.

I am still resisting because it is scary to give Him everything... I feel comfortable keeping it all in, doing it on my own and doing it my way...  but He is knocking loudly...  


and He is kinda hard to ignore. =)

BTW, I heart tenth avenue north... =)

Okay,.. So life isn't so perfect these days.

I wrote this long drawn out post discussing all the arguments I am having with myself about my recent commitments, but I am not going to post it...


Instead I am going to say this.


I'm tired.


I'm tired of being so overextended that I am not doing one thing in my life well.


I am doing everything half-way.


I am getting As in all my classes right now, but I am failing the rest of my life... just giving about 50% so I can get through the day...school, business, teaching, being a mother, wife, friend, writing, exercising ... I can't remember the last time I cleaned the house or cooked a meal. Not that I was ever great at those things, but at least I had time to attempt them.


Being mediocre at everything in my life is.not.working. for me.

More importantly, I have been a terrible mom. I have neglected my husband and my kids and I am tired of it.


My mind is so over-capacity that lately, I can't even focus long enough to pray...

how sad is that? 

I am starting to realize that maybe God has things that He wants me to do that have nothing to do with having a 4.0 in college.

After years of holding myself to impossible standards, I am tired of feeling like I am not good enough.
 
I am tired of telling myself that if I don't accomplish this, and this, and this in my life that I am a worthless failure.

I thought that I could do it all, but I can't.


I thought that I had something to prove, but I don't.


I'm tired... 

of trying to be something that I'm just

not.






ugh....


I have to make a decision that I don't want to make.

I guess that is what being a grown-up is all about though, huh?